Can I just say that he’s already what his friends call ‘a stud’, so this is just unfair to the world.
— beautiful girl by sara bareilles (cover link stolen from jeremiah)
so, impact is tomorrow (dcamp ends) and i really really really wish i was going, but i’m not, so instead, i’ll be here praying my heart out for my jam-mer friends and distant-church friends and the kids i don’t know.
idk, it’s a weird feeling right now like i should be going to that camp rather than the one i’m going to. maybe it’s just the energy built up from not doing too much at home for so long.
in any case, i’ll def. be working on learning that song and i’ll be finishing up that bookstand. (yeah, i’m working my way into builderhood — like a man (; )
i can’t post this stuff on facebook because of the church kids from my church that would probably not like me even more for not liking the camp they regularly attend, but whatever.
cello lesson in less than 48 hours. or more. whatever.
finished a rubik’s cube!(=
my first rubik’s cube finished in less than a week (lol including time spent busy at jam)
idk, i’m excited! (=
i woke up this morning with bad hair and a funny morning voice, but i hopped online to play around before jam and i saw this in my inbox.
God truly is good to bless me with such nice, positive, optimistic, and caring people surrounding me all the time.
so, from now on, i’ll try to not consider myself awkward, but a rainbow unicorn. (because i’m made in God’s image-jam lesson)
thank you. honestly.
THANKS, WEISHEN. THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS. THEY MEAN SO MUCH.
(really long post)
so far
so, this guy named bert totally blew me away when we were thinking of a theme for our WT set. we were just stumped and going in circles. then out of the blue, bert closes his Bible and says
let’s pray, guys.
how faithful and how great of a witness. this guy really blows me away. his musical capabilities are definitely a God given gift. and his knowledge and memory of people’s breaking point (vocally, that is) is astounding.
he’s hopping on a plane early in JAM tomorrow all by his lonesome. prayers for him, please, if you’re reading this. he’s smart enough to do things himself, but every prayer helps and may just keep him safe.
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anyways, on an awkward note (because when do i not have one), it was sunny one moment (after JAM) and the next, it’s pouring rain and i’m just standing there like what with my mouth open. nathan is standing next to me looking out the window, too. then my phone rings and it’s my dad saying ‘hey, i’m outside, just when it starts raining because you know how perfect my timing is, daughter’
seriously.
he.
has.
the.
worst.
timing.
ever.
so, nathan’s sister is outside and i walk out while on the phone debating if i should bring my cello home or not bc i’ve already practiced region at JAM, but idk if i want to leave it in a building in a sketchy area. so, i get off my phone at the exact time nathan comes out with an umbrella for him and his sister to get to his car. which is parked right next to mine.
so, he looks at me with eyes full of absolute awkward pity. and i don’t need pity. it’s water. from the sky. ooh. scary.
but still, as a nice gesture, he asks if i want to use his umbrella with him and his sister to get to a car not 2 yards away. i say yes at first but then awkwardly realize that’d be super weird (esp with my parents watching) so i tell him the rain lightened up in the 20 seconds he asked me if i wanted to use his umbrella and i’ll just walk without him. so i say bye.
but he didn’t hear me, so i walk ahead thinking he did and he follows and i walk forward, totally oblivious to him following me and then i get too far from his car and he really really really REALLY awkwardly says ‘bye’ and i look back and i’m shocked like ‘oh there was no water on my face, duh’
and i say bye. again. but idk if he heard.
so now he thinks i’m a jerk. who walked out into the rain before he was probably ready. who walked away and didn’t look back or say goodbye.
and i can’t say sorry tomorrow bc that’d just be weird.
so i’ll just be the jerkygirl who doesn’t have manners.
ugh.
.
anyways, jeremiah wanted to do an instrumental with me. him on electric guitar and me on cello doing crazybutt doublestops and when i first heard him say that,
i am a lump of awkward atoms jumbled up into the form of a human being.
also, he has long eyelashes. as does weishen and josh and nic. but they’re boys and i’m jealous because i realized that every girl in the world is right about every boy in the world having long eyelashes. ugh. jealousy.
slight obsessions:
SO, i need to talk to a certain lauren LOL. we shall jam out and i am excited.
but bert is leaving early from jam. so i’m kind of sad. he’s pretty awesome and i regret being awkward from birth day one. i should have just been out-right and straight-up about wanting to be friends. darn. ):
jam needs to be like 3 weeks. please and thank you!
muuuuusic camp
and guess who gets to learn bass guitar?
yay! (=
so.
I can always count on jeremiah to post up the best songs on his wall. Always. Without fail.
i feel kind of creepy for scrolling down his wall sometimes, but it’s so worth it.
